Tuesday, April 30, 2013

What if...





Sorry it's been so long since I updated the blog. Again, I have been so busy having a mid-life crisis or 3 that I haven't stopped to think about or answer any questions pertaining to fertility. Denial anybody? Yes please, may I have some more? Sometimes there is a shut off valve that I usually lack...I just keep burning that candle at both ends. Most of the time I am tenacious and more like a bull in a china shop than I would like to admit. This is not one of those times. I'm worn out. I'm so exhausted I can't stand it. I had more blood drawn 3 weeks ago and haven't even called to check on the results. I don't want to hear what else is wrong and how I need to go have IVF immediately to fix it. I don't even know if I ever want to do IVF again!

I have so many unanswered questions... I cannot adequately put into words how infertility changes a person. I felt like the most adequate representation I could muster was through this video. I apologize ahead of time to the 15 friends I did not get permission from to use their kids in this video. Hopefully nobody will mind!

Get your Kleenex out and take a peek. It took me a box to make this!
video


I'm having a hard time finding encouragement in much right now. I still have faith. Not being encouraged doesn't mean you quit believing.  I re-read this passage again the other day and WOW is all I could think. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, FIRM AND SECURE! I fell in love with this promise all over again. God cannot and does not lie! I'll be a monkeys uncle if I'm gonna accuse him of it and find out! He made an oath with me and He will NOT BREAK IT! 

The Certainty of God's Promise

13 When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself, 14 saying, "I will surely bless you and give you many descendants." 15 And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised. 16 Men swear by someone greater than themselves, and the oath confirms what is said and puts an end to all argument. 17Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath. 18 God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, 20 where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek.

The good news is that this video makes me remember why I want to go on this missions trip so badly. There are so many children around the world that would love one ounce of the love and attention that we have to offer...who knows...maybe I'll smuggle one home in my monogrammed back pack!

We still need about 2,000 dollars to complete this journey. I am so appreciative of those who have helped us thus far...and we have already collected almost 3 thousand! If you are interested in donating to the trip click the following link and remember to ADD OUR NAMES IN THE PAYPAL NOTE SECTION!! Or you can always just mail us a check! Shoot me a line if you decide to do that so I will know to expect it! 

http://amazon-mission.org/

Go under the donate button and make a selection! 


Keep us in your prayers as we are having a rough go of 
it right now. Hopefully this trip will remind me of the greater needs out there than my own! I'm looking for a refreshing and renewing from the Amazon! 

Thank you all again for your support and encouragement! 





Jessica and Steven Elliott 
9684 Eaddy Lane
Murrells Inlet, SC 29576