"I can't have a testimony without a test"

Well, here is the update. Try to stick with me as I endeavor to explain a very complicated process via blog! There is good news and bad news! The good news is that I can't eat jack and I have lost 3 pounds this week! And that's about where it ends. Up until now Steven and I have been told that I have 2 out of 3 things wrong. We were made aware this week at the fertility clinic that I have 3 out of 3 wrong! (I always say, "go big or go home" right?) So...now we are faced with a decision. The doctor has advised us that she wants to do 2 more IUI procedures adding stimulation medications and ovulation medication to assist with this. I am not producing enough follicles and therefore the chance of an egg being produced is slim to none. My uterus is misshapen, and my hormones completely whacked (SHOCKING). Basically this is the deal. We are having to come up with 1500 bucks per cycle and the first cycle should start this week...no pressure. I will inject meds and take them by mouth. I will have ultrasounds, another HSG which will tell her exactly what my uterus looks like, and then we will try to get the eggs to come out and play. I would undergo the IUI in about 3 weeks. 

I am overwhelmed and scared. Steven and I are praying and well, worrying about what the right thing to do is. According to the specialist we have less than a 10% chance of ever conceiving and carrying a baby naturally. These medications will at least put me back up to a 20-25% chance of conceiving. That's a normal chance. The risks are minimal. If the meds make me produce too many eggs, they will simply go in with a huge needle and puncture all of the small eggs. Easy peasy right? (WTH?)...the other risk is...
It is estimated that the risk of becoming pregnant with twins while taking letrozole is 10%, while the risk of becoming pregnant with triplets is less than 1%. On the other hand, women who take gonadotropins in conjunction with IUI have as much as a 30% chance for multiple and high-order pregnancies and births. 

OH MMMMMMMMMMM GEEEEEEE.

I Found this video and it pretty well depicts this whole process in 3d. Take a look!

So all that said, I hope pregnant women are okay with one kidney because Steven and I will be donating ours on Monday morning!  When we make a decision and move forward I will update. Please say a prayer for us as this reality is very hard to deal with and our hearts are broken for it to have come to this. Trying to keep the faith and let God do His thing!

Psalm 113:9
He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. Praise the LORD!

Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

Thank God I have a rich daddy (in heaven that is). I'm continuing to have faith and believe. I don't care if they tell me I don't have a uterus at all!

Until I see some results...

P.S. If you get a chance, go listen to this song. And get your tissue out! It's precious!  MySpace.com - Kellie Coffey - OKLAHOMA CITY, Oklahoma - Country / Pop / Rock - www.myspace.com/kelliecoffeyartistpage. It's called I would die for that. It looks like the play button is above the actual song so if you start listening to something else go press the one above it!