I am sitting here right now, wondering what has happened to me. If you are wondering, then join the club. The only explanation is that God finally got my attention. I needed a miracle. I'm demanding like that. Even as a child my mom and dad will tell you, I had to be browbeaten to really get it. I am stubborn and independent. These traits are not innately bad, but can be a big hindrance in trying to get through to me sometimes. I began telling God what was on my mind this morning so I'll let you in on the convo...
Me: Good morning God. Listen, we need to chat. People are going to think I'm a total nut job. I'm sure they already do. Bad enough that I'm talking to my "imaginary friend" but He is now talking back! What gives?
God: (again using scripture against me again)...Jessica...
"But people who aren't spiritual can't receive these truths from God's Spirit. It all sounds foolish to them and they can't understand it, for only those who are spiritual can understand what the Spirit means".(1 cor 2:14)
Me: wow. it sure is early for all that!
God: May I also remind you of John 15:18
“If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you". So don't take it personally.
Me: DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY? UH, I CAN'T HELP IT. I TAKE IT PERSONALLY EITHER WAY.
God: (wow, again using scripture. He didn't utter a word outside of scripture) 1 Peter 3:16
"Having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame".
Me: okay so what your saying is that my weird behavior will be vindicated in the end. I should just continue to forgive and forget, love with reckless abandon, give to my community and to my friends and family and forget all the naysayers?
God: YES. YOU ARE STARTING TO GET THIS WHOLE "I'M IN CHARGE LISTEN TO ME" THING. YOU GO GIRL~ (LOL)
So here's the deal, I'm forgiving and forgetting.
I'm loving with reckless abandon...because He LOVED ME THIS MUCH...It is the least I could do...
and giving back as much as I am told...
And I'm not worrying for one second what anybody else thinks about it! After all, my dad isn't worried!
Crackin myself up again~
GOD TOLD ME TO! =)